Friday, 18 February 2011
If this is another breakdown...
Posted at 11:37:00 PM by aFTi RuSLi
...then it explains why I'm back here. What it doesn't explain is why I went back there.
Am I really that masochistic that I'd force myself into such mental, emotional and physical torture?
Do I strive to be miserable even when I could be happy? Could I be? Happy?
My friends are leaving. One by one. But does it really make a difference? I guess some do. Some just don't bother anymore. To each his or her own.
Which leads me to a bigger reason for me to leave (for good this time). Whatever notion of 'friends' that I thought I was going back there for, it's just that...a notion.
I don't know if it died down or maybe I was so jaded that I didn't realise it wasn't there in the first place. After over 6 years, I suddenly felt out of place, so unfamiliar with my surroundings and most of all...unwanted.
It's been half a year since I went back, and already I feel used, abused and misused. Short-changed. Big time.
But where do I go from here?
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afti dear.. i totally feel you..
perhaps leaving may be a bit knee-jerk (unless you've already found a job) but i think what you need is a break. a good one at it. take a week rest or something. you'll come back refreshed.
take care love!
Thanks darling. Am contemplating a career change but I lovveeee consulting. I think I'm just emo cos my frens r leavg. Zufar's leaving u know? Takde geng :(
hang in there babe. Hugz
Aaawwww Maz. I miss u woman. We were just wondering how you are semalam.
hi afti - so trilled to bump into your blog! this is soo yee, ex school mate in Sri Aman and then for a while in KPMG... how's life for you??? are you still in Accenture? btw - how can we keep in touch? my email is raspberryntea@gmail.com - take care!
SY